I didn’t drive home that night. I drove to a quiet motel on the edge of town, checked in under my name, and sat on the edge of the bed staring at the wall for a long time. The word parasite kept echoing in my head like a drumbeat. Thirty-three years of being the reliable one, the one who fixed things, the one who paid when no one else would, and this was how they saw me.
The next morning my phone had 53 missed calls. My mother, my father, my brother Ethan, my sister-in-law, even a few aunts. I didn’t answer any of them. I opened my laptop instead and started the process I had been quietly preparing for months.