Inside were Liam’s watch, his tie clip, and a few other small things.
She had helped me pack his belongings two days after the funeral.
I had not even noticed they were missing.
My throat tightened.
“You took these?”
She nodded.
“I wanted something of his.”
“Why?”
Her eyes filled again.
“Because he was the only person brave enough to stop me.”
I stared at her for a long time.
Then I said quietly, “You don’t get to grieve him like you didn’t help break what he was trying to protect.”
Grace closed her eyes and nodded.
She didn’t ask me to forgive her.
Maybe even she knew better.
Months passed.
I stopped sleeping on Liam’s side of the bed.
I folded his gray sweatshirt and put it away.
The kids still asked questions I could not fully answer.
One night, Ava looked up at me and asked, “Did Daddy know we loved him?”
I pulled her close.
“Every day,” I said.
Later that night, after both children were asleep, I opened the letter Liam had left for them.
He told Ava to keep asking questions.
He told Ben to be kind, but not so kind that people could walk over him.
He told them both that taking care of their mother did not mean hiding their sadness.
At the bottom, he had written:
If your mom is reading this to you, it means she found her way through. I knew she would.
On the first anniversary of the crash, another rainy Thursday, I drove to the curve outside town for the first time since Liam died.
I brought flowers.
I stood in the drizzle, staring at the guardrail, the wet road, the place where everything had changed.
Then I saw something half-buried in the mud.
A small metal washer.