If your mom is reading this to you, it means she found her way through.
Later, I opened the letter Liam left for them.
He told Ava to keep asking questions.
He told Ben to be kind, but not so kind that people walked over him.
He told them both that taking care of their mother did not mean hiding their sadness.
At the bottom he wrote, If your mom is reading this to you, it means she found her way through. I knew she would.
On the first anniversary of the crash, another rainy Thursday, I drove to the curve outside town for the first time since Liam died.
I brought flowers.
I picked it up and smiled through tears.
I stood there in the drizzle, looking at the guardrail, the road, the place where everything changed.
Then I saw something half-buried in the mud.
A small metal washer.
Blue paint still clung to one edge.
Part of Liam’s old keychain.
I picked it up and smiled through tears.
Not because everything was healed.
“We made dinner breakfast.”
Because Liam had left me a trail, and I followed it.
When I got home, Ava and Ben were waiting at the kitchen table with pancakes they had made badly by themselves. They were uneven, half-burned, and soaked in syrup.
Ava grinned. “We made dinner breakfast.”
Ben lifted his chin. “Mine is only burned on one side.”
I looked at the washer in my palm.
Then Ava saw my face and asked, “Did Daddy help you find the bad part of the story?”
I looked at the washer in my palm.