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Or it used to be. The room where I once answered emails late at night and kept neatly stacked folders from the fertility clinic had been transformed into a nursery. The walls were painted a soft sage green. A white crib stood beneath the window. A rocking chair sat in the corner. Folded blankets rested on a shelf. On the dresser was a framed ultrasound photo. Miguel hadn’t just betrayed me. He had redesigned my life around that betrayal.
I turned slowly. Miguel had followed me to the doorway. Carmen stood farther back, one hand pressed against the wall as if she needed support. Rosa had the nerve to look wounded, as though I were damaging something precious simply by seeing it.
How long? I asked.
Miguel dragged both hands over his face. Carmen cried harder. No one wanted to speak first because the first person would define the cruelty.
Seven months, Carmen whispered.
Seven months.
I did the math instantly, because pain turns people into excellent accountants. Seven months meant the affair had started just after my second miscarriage, when I couldn’t get out of bed for three days and Carmen had sat beside me stroking my hair. Seven months meant that while I was learning how to breathe through grief, the two people I trusted most were building something behind my back.